Ok so I sort of left. And even though I am back I do not guarantee any sort of coherent content and I DEFINITELY am not promising any narrative.

So hi. What’s new? How are you guys?

I am doing well. Despite the sleep problems I am feeling better these days than I have in about three years. And that is a good feeling. I am feeling hopeful… something that has been a loooong time coming. And I feel really ok with things as they are. Which is to say that, even if my circumstances don’t change considerably any time soon… I am ok with that. The job is still tedious and my circle of relationships here in Raleigh is still pretty small, but I am slowly learning to trust myself and to accept my present.

I am not really sure how that has translated into such utter silence in the blog, but I would guess that I have been hesitant to disturb this new-found equilibrium. Instead I spend my evenings working crossword puzzles and reading. And the evenings have gone from these interminably long hours to be filled to something so very short and precious. (I am surprised to hear this from myself!)

Oh, I also took up pipe-smoking. Tobacco, mind you. Picture me relaxing on the porch of a summers eve with jazz in the background and a curved pipe clutched in my hand.

More soon. I HOPE!